i no longer know who i am, and i feel like the ghost of a total stranger.
why do we do it? why do we hide behind such silly things? as if it weren't obvious what we're doing. yet...that's the way the world works. it's just one facade after another. and why do we feel the need to disguise what we want...how we feel...what we really want to say...etc? because we're afraid of rejection...we're afraid of failure.
i'm probably the most guilty person of all when it comes to this...and every day i ask myself 'why?' i mean...i'm so jealous of the people that take so many risks and live life so freely. i think i need a little more of that. i wish i wasn't such a big chicken about everything. i mean...how will you ever know if you don't take the risk, right?
can you imagine if we lived our lives the way we really wanted to instead of the way we thought everyone else expected us to? who knows where i would've ended up after high school...it probably wouldn't have been college right away. and it probably wouldn't have been anywhere around here. as a matter of fact, i'd probably be doing something totally different right now. and it would probably include not having much of a salary...which wouldn't be very popular with the parents. (yes, they still have a large voice in my life...even at age 25)...
but i mean, seriously....think of how much happier we would all be if we just took a chance every once in a while. stop doing things so routinely and taking things forgranted so much. a lot of my friends have lost people they were very close to this past year and it's made me realize just how short life really is. if we don't do what we want to do now...and let people know how much they mean to us now...it might be too late. so i know it's late for resolutions and i know i said i wasn't going to make any...and i'm not. BUT...if i had to pick something that i wanted to do this year, it would be that...to take more risks and to make sure everyone in my life knows exactly how i feel about them. and sometimes that's a little easier said than done.
i'm probably the most guilty person of all when it comes to this...and every day i ask myself 'why?' i mean...i'm so jealous of the people that take so many risks and live life so freely. i think i need a little more of that. i wish i wasn't such a big chicken about everything. i mean...how will you ever know if you don't take the risk, right?
can you imagine if we lived our lives the way we really wanted to instead of the way we thought everyone else expected us to? who knows where i would've ended up after high school...it probably wouldn't have been college right away. and it probably wouldn't have been anywhere around here. as a matter of fact, i'd probably be doing something totally different right now. and it would probably include not having much of a salary...which wouldn't be very popular with the parents. (yes, they still have a large voice in my life...even at age 25)...
but i mean, seriously....think of how much happier we would all be if we just took a chance every once in a while. stop doing things so routinely and taking things forgranted so much. a lot of my friends have lost people they were very close to this past year and it's made me realize just how short life really is. if we don't do what we want to do now...and let people know how much they mean to us now...it might be too late. so i know it's late for resolutions and i know i said i wasn't going to make any...and i'm not. BUT...if i had to pick something that i wanted to do this year, it would be that...to take more risks and to make sure everyone in my life knows exactly how i feel about them. and sometimes that's a little easier said than done.
posted by agirlnamedbob. @ 11:49 PM
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At 12:49 AM,
Anonymous said…
Movie quotes now? Cool.
Good point, too.
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