and every bite i gave you left a mark…OR…some words when spoken ~ can’t be taken back.

why do we do it? why do we open our mouths when we know we should keep them shut? why do we just go on and on with our mouth when our brain is telling us to shut up? we know when to say things and when to remain silent, yet sometimes we just can’t help it…we continue to make a jackass of ourselves. occasionally we will even do it in front of an audience…and then later wonder why someone didn’t just tackle us to get us to stop talking. at least…that’s how i feel sometimes when i get on a good roll.

we tend to take things out on our friends and family because we know they will still be there for us and still love us, in spite of what we say and do. and even though that’s true, the ones we love the most are the ones we end up hurting the deepest. i hate that about myself. it shouldn’t be that way. we should lift each other up…not tear each other down.

and it’s not their fault that you might have some things on your mind…or be a little more on edge than usual. it’s not their fault that something they say could strike you the wrong way and then your response catch them totally off-guard…but it is your fault when your response hurts their feelings. it is your fault when you look directly into their eyes and say mean and hurtful things to and about them and show no remorse for the hateful things that are spewing out of your mouth as your friends stand around in shocked silence.

you know you’re wrong, yet you do it any way.

i’m generally not a mean-spirited or hateful person, but i said some hurtful things last night. and i know i can’t take those words back…or the manner in which they were said. but, this is my public apology. you didn’t deserve that, and i truly am sorry…straight from my heart, i am.