we've been spotted and are being pulled in by her tractor beam

it took me a while to notice today. i thought i’d lost it. i thought it was completely gone forever. i mean, i usually get at least a couple a day…sometimes more. and every time i frown and make some noise that resembles utter disgust. but then, i noticed it wasn’t happening…and all of a sudden i wanted to know what was wrong with me. was i not good enough anymore? what was the deal? i was seriously on my way to giving myself a complex. i mean….how could i get whatever that appeal was back? would it ever come back? and the even greater question…why did i want it back?

so, there i sat…in silence…consoling myself over the loss of the last sure self-esteem booster i had (however sad it may be)…

and then i passed him…the glorious trucker who honked the horn and waved…and all was right in the world again.

*sigh*

it’s sad, i know…but it’s all i’ve got.

for now.