i'm in no position to complain.

i have a lot of excuses for not blogging lately. i guess if you wade through them all, what it really boils down to is laziness. can you be busy and lazy at the same time? whatever…cause i am.

i’m not complaining, though…because it’s been a good busy.

i have so much to be thankful for and yet it seems like all i can do is look at what i don’t have or focus on what’s wrong. it just seems like all i do is whine or complain. i have absolutely nothing to whine or complain about. i have everything i could ever need and more right now. i am more blessed right now than i ever thought i would be and definitely more than i deserve to be.

so i guess i need to apologize. i need to take a minute to say i’m sorry. i’m sorry for whining. and i’m sorry for complaining. and i’m sorry for focusing on what i don’t have and what’s wrong at the moment. i know all of those things are temporary and they don’t matter.

and i need to say thanks. thanks for everything You’ve given me. i don’t deserve any of it. i don’t deserve anything You’ve ever done for me and yet you keep giving and giving and forgiving and giving. thank you so much for loving me…flaws and all.