lately i'm alright...and lately i'm not scared...
...it's me. i'm scared i won't be a good mom. i'm scared i won't know what to do. i'm scared i can't take care of her like she needs me to. i'm scared i'll warp her for life. i just want to be the best wife and mother i can possibly be. and sometimes that takes real effort.
work today was crazy and exhausting. tomorrow is not going to be much easier. tonight, i realized just how much my work affects my family. i'm going to try to stop bringing things home with me. that's a very hard task when you're a social worker and it's your job to hear and handle other people's problems all day. i'm not really sure what i was wanting to say tonight. i think i've just missed writing and i wanted to be sure that i still knew how. i still know...i just wonder if i'll ever be semi-good at it.